It was a beautiful day. The sun was warm, and bright, and well, it was there. We hadn't seen it in at least a week, although I knew it was there, just waiting to come out.
I sipped my coffee and contemplated this day, this special day. Twelve years ago, this day, Blue and I were married. It has, to date, been one of the happiest days of my life. I was, am, madly in love with this man. For some, this love that makes a marriage, that ties two people together is based on feelings, on circumstances, on actions. Our marriage is not perfect, but it is a gift, a good gift from the One who is perfect and good and love.
We often struggle with special days, anniversaries, birthdays, and the such. The constant demands of life pulling such that to add something extra is too great. I feel the pressure, often in advance, to "do something", to make this day different than any of our other days. I forget, forget that I have a wonderful husband, who loves me. I forget that I have four beautiful children who give so much to my life. I forget that every day is special.
So, as this anniversary approached, I reminded Blue, I made plans, I contacted a babysitter, so that we could have a few minutes alone. Then, I discover that Blue has inadvertantly registered for a bike race on this day. This day, our special day! I was hurt, and I was angry. He apologizes, he cancels, he tells me he loves me. No, I am sure that this day, this special day is ruined!
The night before, he returns from a ride and as he turns to face me, I see that his face is covered in blood. Fear races through by body, but unfortunately leaves my body with the face of anger. I lash out at him, covering my fear with blame, somehow this all must be his fault.
So, this morning of this special day, I sip my coffee. Our babysitter was unable to come, so this day is made more special by the vibrant presence of our four little ones. My sweet man is making us breakfast. We will drift away the afternoon by the river, picnicing, and splashing in the water. And, I am so grateful, am so blessed, am so content to be.
