chaos

Life with three kids under the age of four is not what most people would describe as "having a life". I used to, before I had any children, look at other moms and wonder how they could possibly "need a break" from their little darlings, or how they could desire to work a job, or why they looked like they hadn't brushed their hair or changed their clothes in days. Well,....now I know. My life now consists of diapers, sippy cups, macaroni and cheese, kids silly songs, and all within the confines of my home. The phrase, "run naked in the streets, screaming and cutting myself" now has new meaning. I am too exhausted to have a social life. When my husband offers me a break, I just want to check into a hotel and sleep.
On the sunny side, sometimes I am filled with such a deep fulfillment and joy. It is a wonderful feeling to know that I am here on earth doing exactly what God wants me to be doing. Wow! I may never write a book, which is something I have always wanted to do. I may never travel extensively, which is also something I have wanted to do. But, I am responsible for three little lives, three little human beings. I am the one who will have such a great impact on their lives, teaching them to love God, to be kind to others, to respect God's creation, to influence the world around them for the greatest good. I am overwhelmed and honored to be the mother of Ocean, 4 years old, Meadow, 2 years old, and Forest, 2 months. GOD is so good.